Oh, what do you see, you souls!
Archive for 2009
Pulled off and cast aside
In Celebrity, Poetry, T-shirt on November 23, 2009 at 12:24 amP.T. Anderson’s Tee
I wish I were P.T.
Anderson’s t-shirt so
I could know cool movie stars with
cool haircuts like John C. Reilly
and Adam Sandler, and sometimes,
maybe, I could get pulled
off and cast
aside by Fiona Apple.
I bet I wouldn’t even get
that sweaty,
most of the time.
B(alloons) flat
In Film, Music, Poetry on November 20, 2009 at 12:01 am
as i fly over this time
Thulani Davis
for Dianne McIntyre
as i fly over this time
rising over only this
so much painted suffering
unseen grimaces and stares
among spruce greens
these few forests left
all of us trying to be alone
quiet and blind.
*
i see soldiers in bus stations
with colored names
polaroid shots
their girlfriends chew gum
smile wide
*
in all this silver of sky
like stars these wheels
car gears lampshades
electrical refuse
zen oiled and greased
the believers now so many
now so tired of the sad songs
the endless yearnings for war
and more and more
*
dumb cries i sigh
trying to get out of town
i am writing on the wall
it will be painted over
like all the songs
once outside
but as i fly over this time
*
dianne is dancing
touching the far reaches
leaping and teaching
she strokes and struts the air
none of us stumbles
or fears their lives
steel beams and rail tracks
strike an E-flat, B-flat, A
E-flat, B-flat, A
dianne is dancing
no one can handle the hostages
terror is abandoned
because of light
breaking in leaves
because the center is gone
we are still breathing
and the swing is our bodies
Fakes is fakes
In Confessional, Fashion, Philosophy on November 19, 2009 at 2:15 pm
Something I’m struggling with right now.
Easter Rabbit is here
In Art, Prose, Travel on November 17, 2009 at 3:09 pmViscerally exquisite. Publishing Genius has taken care to do justice to Christine Sajecki’s amazing artwork for the cover, not to mention Joseph Young’s words inside. Feels good, cool to the touch, nice raised lettering. This is a wonderful thing to own.
As I mentioned before, Adam Robinson has made a dare to read this book in one sitting– “whoever reads the 3,000 words in one sitting, can email me for a full refund. My thinking is that the stories satiate after reading three or four, overwhelm after seven or eight.” I’m taking him up on it now, 1:33 PM PST. Will post when finished.
–I will post comments as I go, though not too directly about the texts, and I don’t want to spoilerize anyone.
–“It was impossible to understand, the humid cloud of words.”
–Wonder about extra credit for reading the same ones again and again.
–Cartogram feels exactly like the best kind of travelling.
–Oh, Light of No Understanding.
–The Gossipers seems complete, perfect.
–Finished Easter Rabbit at 2:20 PM PST. Not sure what to say that does justice, that doesn’t seem trite, or flippant. Just that these writings do what art does, encompass the familiar, the emotion of everyday life fully and without artifice. A pan in the snow, a quarter on the back of a hand– I had no idea such things could make me feel so much.
Easter Rabbit also includes 2 more collections, Deep Falls and God Not Otherwise. I’m on to Deep Falls now.
–Disclose/Agape together with Moses just blows me away.
–Finished Deep Falls. This is a cohesive place/relationship narrative paced in micros. Imagistic, harsh, lovely, all that. Really good.
God Not Otherwise
–Some certainties, with an interlude. Excellence.
and 5 lines about Baltimore as intense as the rest of the book combined.
Finis, 2:50 PM PST.
Lucia, Luis, and the Wolf
In Art, Exes, Film on November 15, 2009 at 9:40 am
It was like he didn’t talk about everything.
During the night, all the sounds are louder.
Check London
In Art, Music, Travel on November 14, 2009 at 5:41 amDzanc all* Best of the Web in one place nominees – cont’d.
In List, Poetry, Prose on November 1, 2009 at 1:51 pm*some**
Anti-
“Dawn’s raw scraping awful when you’ve become a mollusk without a shell again.”
Lee Ann Roripaugh, Sleepless Graffiti
Mira Martin-Parker, Flesh Eater
Travis Brown, Bobwhite
Blue Fifth Review
“You read yourself from cover to cover.”
George Moore, Survivor Tactics
Eileen Tabios, Alchemy at the Maykadeh: Dinner with Philip Lamantia
Yun Wang, Meditation on Hair
Cha
“She grasps my hands when I kiss her shoulder. As she responds she recites the recipe for cooking pork with honey. Use honey from Alaska, she insists.”
Nirmala Pillai, The Killing
Jason Lee, 45 Belgrave Square
Surajit Chakravarty, Taste
The Chimaera
“The battle of Ivy League sweatshirts/was raging behind us.”
Jennifer Reeser, Sonnet 23 from The Dark Lady
Rick Mullin, Distraction
Geoff Page, Seeing People
decomP
““I like your toes,” she says. “They’re like a frog’s—bigger at the tip, you know. Your feet smell.” “
Jeannie Galeazzi, Aeronauts
Stefan Kiesbye, Home
Jessa Marsh, My Motel Week
Emprise Review
“I burned the sacraments.”
Michelle Reale, Snow Blind
Steven J. McDermott, Wheel Clatter
Barbara Yien, If You See Buddha On The Road, Kill Him
The Flea
“Hasn’t there been enough of dropping/The quarter hours and the whole in chimes?”
Stephen Edgar, Vertigo
Marly Youmans, Clock of the Moon and Stars
Mark Allinson, Hydrangeas
kill author
“He kisses me and it feels like a car crash.”
J. A. Tyler, jimmy and his Father and the Ways About Them
Emma J. Lannie, Proxy
Audri Sousa, you kept repeating the same patterns that alienate me so i went away from you and reenacted us with plastic bottles while the lesbian ghost tried to have sex with me
Monkeybicycle
“I think probably all past decades have some major drawback or another, but it seems like any of them would be fine to visit as a tourist.”
Meg Pokrass, What the Doctor Ordered
Angi Becker Stevens, If Everything is Inevitable
Dallas Woodburn, Numb
PANK
“Wrap your arms around me so I feel how small I am.”
Lauren Becker, You Should Know
Steven J. McDermott, Sliver
Brandi Wells, Instructional
Poemeleon
“My chest is a guitar hole/and I’m jacking up the music until the windows break.”
Jo Scott-Coe, Not So Gay at the YMCA
Diane Seuss, Baby goodbye
Lafayette Wattles, Soup Kitchen
Shit Creek Review
“Urgency clings like a silken lining against the air.”
Janice D. Soderling, After the Funeral
Timothy Murphy, Prayer for a Horseman
Michael Cantor, Death Watch
Sweet: A Literary Confection
“the air barely brushing the trees//the way you might touch the hair of someone/you loved once”
Geoff Schmidt, Otis and Jake
Jason Tucker, Kudzu Got Angry
Tim Seibles, 4am
Thirst For Fire
“The cleaning lady steps off the bus and thinks, “That man’s voice sounds the way shoe polish smells.””
Gregg Williard, Cleaning Lady
Nate Innomi, The Frame Maker
Will Spires, The Wall (on Which She Hangs)
**done
Dzanc all* Best of the Web in one place nominees
In List, Poetry, Prose on November 1, 2009 at 12:07 am*most**
Annalemma Magazine
“I may not know how I want my hair cut, or how I want Matt Mitcham to get me off, but I sure as hell know what I don’t want to be, and generally that’s whatever you tell me I am.”
Sam Nam, If I Could Lend Him My Words
Meg Pokrass, The Big Dipper
Tim Jones-Yelvington, Seducing Matt Mitcham
Bartleby Snopes
“I’ll pass through small towns God has abandoned, where the stoplights work, but traffic is frozen.”
Richard Santos, Membrane
Richard Osgood, Slow Motion Riders
Howie Good, Ghosts of Breath
Everyday Genius
“Certain prayers are designed specifically for the drunk on the street.”
Cindy Loehr, Shrub Prayer
Laura Ellen Scott, The Temple Dog
Joseph Young, Galaxy
Flutter
“My bones hollow/for the sight of another woman.”
Laura L. Snyder, The Telling Signs
Paula Ray, Where Wild Poisonous Mushrooms Grow
Mary Belardi Erickson, Blossoms & Jam, Maybe Wine
mud luscious
“There is nothing more lonely than to have a person inside you.”
Mike Meginnis, Brother
Molly Gaudry, The Dead Cells of the Day
Sean Lovelace, Meaning of Life #35
No Posit
“our captain/is of pegged leg, parroted shoulder and strong will”
Jeff Crouch, Paper Clips
Joseph Goosey, A Free Over the Phone Consultation
Jason Bredle, Moby Dick
No Tell Motel
“Come home, round corner.”
Elizabeth Hildreth, Eating the Future
Jenn Koiter, Ghazal, with Accessories
Joanna Ruocco, When I Worked for Madonna
Pangur Ban Party
“Toes in my hands, my mean face stops.”
Adam Moorad, The Nurse And The Patient
J. A. Tyler, When We Take Off Our Heads
Sam Pink, Bernhard Goetz
Smokelong Quarterly
“I found his room I said his name, Doctor.”
Z.Z. Boone, Rats
Mary Hamilton, Me and Theodore Are Trapped in the Trunk of the Car with Rags in Our Mouths and Tape Around Our Wrists and Ankles, Please Let Us Out.
Sam Nam, I Use Commas Like Ninja Stars
Terrain.org
“Stones and people do what they must to find repose.”
Pamela Uschuk, A Short History of Falling
J. David Bell, Positioning
Ben Quick, Lee’s Ferry
Toasted Cheese
“My family was like a kelp bed in which things get trapped but never grow.”
Alan Averill, Things Difficult to Say
Kimberley Idol, Painting Naked
Frank O’Connor, Foolish Creatures
Valparaiso Poetry Review
“And why not, this world has been good to us”
Cornelius Eady, Aretha Franklin’s Inauguration Hat
Claudia Emerson, Ground Truth
Charles Wright, I’ve Been Sitting Here Thinking Back over My Life…
Writers’ Bloc
“Poetry makes me feel like a stunned sea bass.”
Sean Lovelace, Writing, about writing
Jimmy Chen, Check, please?
Thomas Sullivan, Pity Party
YB
“I’m 35 now, and what debt. What debt.”
Rob Woodard, Orange Crush
Sean Patrick Hill, Self-Portrait as George Gisze, Merchant
Molly Gaudry, Gratitude
**to be cont’d
Remembered
In Dream, Household, Sex on October 30, 2009 at 6:31 amThe dream was sexual. There was a death. A Nigerian looking man. The last thing before waking, trying to fold a stained towel.
Expectations, of linens
In Entertaining, Household, Poetry on October 26, 2009 at 12:18 am
because i’m drawn to your tightropes,
their solid, stolid tension
as they anchor my wrists
and slash across my shoulders
and because the doorknobs and the latches
throw strange glints into the ordinary shapes
of shadows playing across the bedroom walls
become merry and magnified with the silent brightness
of unvoiced expectations, of linens lovingly bleached
by fresh sunshine and sanded by brisk winds
to bedeck the not unpleasant, not unsatisfying everyness
of the days and the nights already bountiful
with ringmasters, liontamers, clowns and dancers,
a well-tried safety net, the softness of lavish sawdust
yet this would not be the stuff of parade and dream
were it not for your flaming hoops, the happiness of your knives.
Heat lightning
In Art, Prose, Space on October 25, 2009 at 2:24 pmI started writing from the point of view of a small, fragile child but then at some point I found myself describing her neighbors, this grotesquely healthy and fortunate family who lived across the street. I found the true voice for the story in this family’s youngest daughter who was attracted to Wren even as her family, particularly the father, feared her. Both attitudes, the attraction and the fear, are very strange and so, I think, very real. –Kathy Fish
excerpt from Wren
Kathy Fish
One evening our mother joined in the games instead of making supper. Father grabbed her and held her tight around her waist and she struggled to free herself. My brothers and I yanked on Father’s arms and legs, screeching and laughing, as the fireflies lifted out of the grass around our ankles.
Mother stopped struggling and Father loosened his grip and we all turned to see Wren and her parents on their nightly walk. Mother gathered us all around her, hushing us. We were panting and sweaty and unable to keep still.
Father picked up the forgotten football and smacked it against his palm. Mr. Chu nodded and Father nodded back. Wren’s mother glanced at our mother. Some maternal understanding, like heat lightning, flashed in the space between them. I couldn’t see Wren’s eyes, but it seemed she was looking at me. I wanted to cross the street and touch her white cheek. I wanted to tell her my name.
How to write love songs
In Art, How to, Music on October 22, 2009 at 11:45 pm
I just see things around me and try to rationalize them as we all do. I’m more influenced by the current state of culture and its complexities than I am other writers. –Mike Aho
Telling my troubles to strangers
In Film, List, Music on October 19, 2009 at 12:22 am
Mostly I straddle reality and the imagination. My reality needs imagination like a bulb needs a socket. My imagination needs reality like a blind man needs a cane. Math is hard. Reading a map. Following orders. Carpentry. Electronics. Plumbing. Remembering things correctly. Straight lines. Sheet rock. Finding a safety pin. Patience with others. Ordering in Chinese. Stereo instructions in German. –Tom Waits
One-eighth
In Beverage, Photography, Prose on October 18, 2009 at 8:36 pmThe dignity of movement of the iceberg is due to only one-eighth of it being above water. –Ernest Hemingway
Just to eat
In Music, Nutrition, Poetry on October 17, 2009 at 8:21 am
It grew in the black mud.
It grew under the tiger’s orange paws.
Its stems thinner than candles, and as straight.
Its leaves like the feathers of egrets, but green.
The grains cresting, wanting to burst.
Oh, blood of the tiger.
I don’t want you just to sit down at the table.
I don’t want you just to eat, and be content.
I want you to walk out into the fields
where the water is shining, and the rice has risen.
I want you to stand there, far from the white tablecloth.
I want you to fill your hands with the mud, like a
blessing.
We don’t walk so badly
In History, Photography, Prose on October 15, 2009 at 2:19 amExcursion into the Mountains
Franz Kafka
“I don’t know,” I cried without a sound, “I just don’t know. If nobody comes, then nobody comes. I have not done anyone any harm, nobody has done me any harm, but nobody wants to help me. Absolutely nobody. But really it is not this way. Just that nobody helps me — otherwise absolutely nobody would be fine. I would really like — and why not? — to make an excursion in the company of absolutely nobody. Into the mountains of course, where else? How these nobodies press against each other, all these arms, crossed and entangled, all these feet, separated by tiny steps! It is understood that everyone is in tails. We don’t walk so badly, and the wind moves through the gaps that we and our limbs leave open. In the mountains throats become free! It’s a wonder we don’t sing.”
trans. by Kevin Blahut
published by Twisted Spoon Press
A rose is most
In Art, Hobby, How to on October 14, 2009 at 7:34 pmA rose is most fragrant when it is one-quarter to two-thirds open and has been slightly warmed by morning sun.
In the category of grace, of things undeserved
In Art, Film, Music on October 13, 2009 at 8:02 am
via radish king, plus some other things
The purpose of art is not the release of a momentary ejection of adrenaline but is, rather, the gradual, life long construction of a state of wonder and serenity. –Glenn Gould
Early breaking news
In History, Household, Prose on October 12, 2009 at 8:19 pmOkay, I should have posted about this a long time ago, but I didn’t. But I still will, anyway, because it’s so good. It’s Scrotal Cash, the featherproof books collection of remixes of Blake Butler’s crazy-excellent, highly reviewed book, Scorch Atlas. Basically, amazing writers deconstructed, reconstructed, unconstructed and co-destructed the original work into things altogether else, things innovative, harrowing, beautiful, incredible.
The authors included entered a contest judged by Blake Butler, and they are Matt Bell, Andrew Borgstrom, Jon Cone, Elizabeth Ellen, Brian Evenson, Christopher Higgs, Catherine Lacey, John Madera, Matthew Simmons, J.A. Tyler, and Marcus Whale– and that’s not even including the winner, Krammer Abrahams, whose story brilliantly twists the apocalyptics of Scorch Atlas inside out and applies them to interfamilial dynamics– one family, complete with pets and spare parents, is the atlas, and the devastation is absurd and appalling.
Anyway, it can be downloaded for free from featherproof books, but schemes are afoot to produce and sell limited edition hard copies. Blake Butler is working to put together some copies for interested parties, and Krammer Abrahams might like to hand-deliver you his own handmade copy, for just $100. If you live in the continental United States, and if there are 10 of you.
Happy Columbus Day!

In spite of man, he crumbles
In Philosophy, Poetry, Universe on October 11, 2009 at 2:37 am
Song of Solomon 6:10 Who is she that looketh forth as the morning, fair as the moon, clear as the sun, and terrible as an army with banners?
Comfortable
In Household, Nutrition, Photography on October 10, 2009 at 5:37 pmPete Jones’s Canadian Bacon Pizza
Cami Park
1 12-inch unbaked pizza crust
1 cup pizza sauce
2/3 cup mozzarella cheese
6 oz chopped Canadian bacon
1/2 cup thinly sliced mushrooms
1 small green or red bell pepper, seeded and sliced
1/2 tsp crushed dried oregano
1/2 tsp crushed dried basil
crushed red pepper flakes
Get off the couch. Shuffle into the kitchen. Read note on refrigerator, and gather together pizza crust, pizza sauce, hunk of mozzarella cheese, package of Canadian bacon, pint of mushrooms, and oregano, basil, and red pepper flakes. Take forever to find the damn pepper. Wonder if a yellow one would have been okay too.
Read recipe again. Pick up cheese and put it down again. Read package of Canadian bacon. Try to figure out how to get 6 oz from the 10 oz package. Open it up and eat some. Sigh heavily. Poke at the mushrooms. They look dirty. Pick up the damn pepper and turn it over and over again in your hand. What the hell is seeded?
Stare dumbly at it all for a moment. Call Domino’s.
Prep time: 1 hour. Feeds Pete.
previously published in Forklift, Ohio
It’s nothing, nothing at all
In Prose, Science, Sculpture on October 9, 2009 at 1:31 pmAnd I always thought that the simplest words
Must be enough. That when I say how things are
Everyone’s heart must be torn to shreds. –Bertolt Brecht
So we ask, what’s the point? Who cares? And this is where it’s hard to explain, to justify. Very good haiku, and excellent microfiction, they bloom in the mind, you read them and a rose of apprehension spreads through the head, across the synaptic spaces. Their meaninglessness opens up possibility, a grasp of chance and luck that is nearly impossible to explain. It’s a view of the void that is filled brim-full with nothing, like the spaces left out of a sculpture, the women of Henry Moore. It’s nothing, nothing at all. It’s a chrysanthemum blooming, two people arguing about a dog. –Joseph Young
There’s no doubt a deep psychological explanation for the fascination of the hole. –Henry Moore
Love & Peace & Bar
In Music, Sex, Universe on October 6, 2009 at 5:44 pm
“For years I had recorded hours of tapes of my teenage band, prank phone calls, studio demo tapes, synthesizer blurbles, and various recordings of an unusual nature. I wanted all this hard work to be heard, and I loved distributing my tapes simply to annoy people and sometimes even to enlighten or entertain them . . . It was my response to a world that seems always to have told me that I am small and worthless. Putting out music for the hell of it was my way of giving the finger to a universe indifferent to my existence.” –John Trubee, from You Too Can Be a Recording Star!
Easter at Christmas
In Art, Confessional, Prose on October 5, 2009 at 10:57 amThis moved me:
As does everything from Joseph Young.
Publishing Genius is offering a couple of promotions for his book, Easter Rabbit. For the next five pre-orders, they’ll send out Matthew Simmons’s book, A Jello Horse, which I haven’t read, but sounds pretty good. It might be too late for this, I don’t know. I don’t even know if I ordered in time or not.
The other deal is a dare. They dare you to read all 3K words of Easter Rabbit in one sitting, and if you can do it, you get your money back. That’s it. Just do it, tell them you did it, plus 50 words of what you thought of it all (which they’ll post on their site) and you get your money back. They think you can’t do it, because, according to publisher Adam Robinson, “It’s too long, even though it’s so short.”
I believe him, but I’m a sucker for a dare. So we’ll see.
Questions about life and shit, part II
In Poetry, Prose, Sex on October 4, 2009 at 7:20 pmIt came in the mail today. Well, yesterday, I suppose, but I picked it up today. It was drizzling a bit, but no drop penetrated the tight, classy packaging.
It looks good in person. It feels good, too. The text and the graphic are slightly raised; handling this book is texturally pleasant.
I’m the second piece in, after Jessica, before Greg. I like it. I’m comfortable with my line breaks now, and with my surroundings. I feel cared for, and in good company. I feel kind of important, even. Well, not important, exactly. I guess just comfortable.
Andrew Borgstrom’s is my absolute favorite, out of so much good, which I’ve already talked about. Whose Goddam Oatmeal Is This?
There is an ISBN.
This is something to have, I think.
My poem:
Where Is Cyrano?
Cami Park
Your eyes are like honey in a cup.
Your cheekbones are
like
the shoulder blades of an anorexic,
they are like
the wings of sharp birds.
The time I spend explaining things
to you is like
traveling faster than
the speed of light and coming back
50 years younger, before
I was even born.
Explain that one to me.
Fucking you is like
pressing my thumbnail
through the skin of a bruised apple
which is weird
because I hardly ever talk like that.
This is not my mouth.
We are in love
In Film, Mathematics, Philosophy on October 2, 2009 at 12:01 amWhen we are in love we seem to ourselves quite different from what we were before.
–Blaise Pascal
What the goat says
In Advice, Fashion, Photography on October 1, 2009 at 1:33 amGoat Horoscope
1907, 1919, 1931, 1943, 1955, 1967, 1979, 1991, 2003
Chinese Goat Daily for Oct. 1st, 2009 (Today)
All those natives who’ve had diffuse troubles will finally be able to be cured. Don’t have any regrets for a new conquest who has fled you so rapidly; another very charming person will already be on the way! Despite your habitual prudence, you’ll hardly be able to resist your present desires for spending. In your work, favor quality over output for the time being. Slow your tempo and strengthen your achievements, otherwise you may go past the door in your hurry to find it.
Maybe crying
In Confessional, Photography, Sex on September 30, 2009 at 5:43 pmMaybe crying is childish but in a good way.
Maybe crying isn’t everything.
If you were standing next to someone who was visibly upset, maybe crying?
Maybe crying after orgasm is a result of pain or of hurt feelings.
Other times I dream that, after a few drinks, we find ourselves in the sauna at YMCA talking about the old times, laughing, maybe crying.
i understand maybe crying for an oscar or a grammy, but a kids choice award?
Maybe crying is an exception.
On the other hand, maybe crying is a functionless byproduct of increased autonomic activity in distressed individuals.
Pay Raises — Maybe Crying To The Mayor Will Get Results From City.
Maybe crying is something you should try more often.
I was rubbing her back and it seems like she was sad and maybe crying, I’m not sure.
You’re thinking: Maybe crying’s not such a bad idea…. Whoa. Hold it right there.
Not shrieking, necessarily, but maybe crying and acting cranky.
BRAND: And maybe crying a little bit on the outside.
We are not freezers of bears
In Art, Household, Poetry on September 29, 2009 at 12:13 amI’ve been meaning to say something.
I’d love to go on and on about how artists aren’t conduits
or special. We are not freezers of bears. We aren’t
shaman or conjurers and nothing we do is mysterious.
I could just go on and on about how people are like
“it just flowed through me” and “it happened” and
“enlightenment” and, you know, the general
mystery thing and super good, good thing. It’s like
everyone is special. I mean, like artists
as prophets and whatnot, getting all deep
in the belly of the goodness shark, gnashing away at injustice
and silliness, being better, being more than, being
the Jones’. O how I hate the idea of Talent and Exceptional
and Gifted and Blessed and Touched. I could go on and on.
Or, I’ve also been thinking about family and how it happens
that one has one and one lives with one and so on. But then
other things happen, like not going on and on. Like not
saying these things. Like not anything happening.
At those moments I end up slightly confused, looking
at myself in a mirror and feeling like a dead god.
Muscly back
In Prose, Publicity, Sex on September 27, 2009 at 3:08 pmI wrote Beautiful Plague for the year 1505 for for every year.
The leaves on the paths ran like rats
In Art, Beverage, Poetry on September 26, 2009 at 6:40 pmWhen the elephant’s-ear in the park
Shriveled in frost,
And the leaves on the paths
Ran like rats,
Your lamp light fell
On shining pillows
Of sea shades and sky shades
Like umbrellas in Java.
Hey hey hey, monsters
In Prose, Sex, Surprises on September 25, 2009 at 7:37 am
excerpt from I Will Unfold You With My Hairy Hands
Shane Jones
The hair monster checked out the ass of a handicapped woman. She was standing with her back turned when the hair monster noticed her panty line against her white tights and thought, hey hey hey. He was a typically lonely hair monster, and often looked at women trying to imagine what it would feel like to caress their human skin.
He kept watching her as she walked away. And that’s when he noticed her hands balled up against her chest, her chin tucked down and rubbing against her knuckles as she shuffled her feet. The hair monster looked away, feeling ashamed, questioning just what kind of hair monster he really was. His mother had raised him better.
(thanks to Crispin Best for pointing me to this story)
Wtf, Punctuation Day
In How to, Music, T-shirt on September 24, 2009 at 4:00 pm“When Hemingway killed himself, he put a period at the end of his life. Old age is more like a semicolon.”– Kurt Vonnegut
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! ! ! is pronounced by repeating thrice any monosyllabic sound. Chk Chk Chk is the most common pronunciation, but they could just as easily be called Pow Pow Pow, Bam Bam Bam, Uh Uh Uh, etc.
Stockings
In Art, How to, Music on September 23, 2009 at 9:36 am
Handbook for the Woman Driver: A Must for the Woman at the Wheel – 1955
Clothes and Beauty En Route (page 173)
Stockings: Practical as American women are, they often have a phobia against wearing stockings suitable for the occasion. For everyday wear, even with walking shoes, women buy hose far more sheer than what was considered evening weight just a few years ago. Have some sheer nylons for dressy occasions, but for the trip consider a medium-weight stocking (45-15 is good), knowing it is sheer enough to flatter your legs, yet able to take strain. If stockings are too short or skimpy, their tops may cut into your thighs as you drive, and they won’t be long enough for you to garter them to your girdle without pulling uncomfortably.
So
In Art, Poetry, Religion on September 22, 2009 at 5:59 pmWhy Are Your Poems So Dark?
Linda Pastan
Isn’t the moon dark too,
most of the time?
And doesn’t the white page
seem unfinished
without the dark stain
of alphabets?
When God demanded light,
he didn’t banish darkness.
Instead he invented
ebony and crows
and that small mole
on your left cheekbone.
Or did you mean to ask
“Why are you sad so often?”
Soft white
In Art, Philosophy, Poetry on September 17, 2009 at 1:13 amAm I an animal
able to distinquish
beams of light
like music this moonlit night
eyes closed
–Mizuhara Shion (trans. Hiroaki Sato)
Were you ever my favorite?
In Celebrity, Music, Poetry on September 14, 2009 at 12:35 amRollerfink did a nice re-mix of my last 16 blog post titles; check it out, he is quite a talented fellow.
Some strange gravity
In Poetry, Religion, Universe on September 13, 2009 at 8:53 pm
For Elizabeth
Jim Carroll
It is winter ending on earth. The planets align tomorrow in March and grow more distant from the sun and each other like stray, worn soldiers retreating from an enemy that no longer exists. It is a mild spring in purgatory. In green limbo the children whose foreheads are dry, whose hands do not grow, are transformed themselves to seasons of birds circling an obelisk of shivering mercury. None are allowed prey, none are allowed heaven’s crooked beak. They are radiant swallows with thorns for tongues to feed on the shifting mercury from the mythology of God’s hand, which I cannot break, even now, under this tearful scrutiny. I’ve tried. I’ve tried. I am allowing to pass through me a statement of death. You, the catalyst of such distorted memory. In that limbo the children move in some strange gravity within and outside Grace. Their Lord is angry. They have died with their innocence untested. None knows what it has been or will be ~ each day it changes without changing ~ do you understand what I am saying? It is the life you chose on this Earth, the life of junk and lies. But that wasn’t You, I knew You ~ you had perfect lips, eyes like a true child, your breasts unformed, an incandescent mind. This place where I put you now, it is a cursed season, an awkward line, a flawed circle, a snake on fire devouring what tomorrow it will itself become.
If you aren’t going to die, at least make a palace of it
In Architecture, Confessional, Household on September 12, 2009 at 1:36 pmQuestions About Life and Shit
In Poetry, Prose, Publicity on September 10, 2009 at 12:21 amI received a preview of Questions About Life and Shit today, which as of now can be pre-ordered from Bureau de Books. It’s filled with poetry (including one from ME) and short prose, each titled as a question. There’s no table of contents with the title lined up with the author in the proof I read, so I’m going to put one here, for you, and for me.
Jessica Maybury, The Earth is Filled With Violence?
Cami Park, Where is Cyrano?
Greg Gerke, Vincent and Theo (and Murray?)
Ani Smith, Can I Offer You a Refresher?
J. A. Tyler, Am I How This Is?
Chris East, Do You Want to Live With Me in My Parent’s Basement?
Sariya Iman Ikoye, Illegible Emotion/If the Meaning of Life Is to Find the Meaning of Life What Does This Mean; Is it Like ‘The Joke Is There Is No Joke’ or ‘The Point Is There Is No Point’ or Something?
Ben Brooks, What Are We?
Jimmy Chen, Who Has the Key to the Lactation Room?
Andrew Borgstrom, Whose Goddam Oatmeal is This?
Sam Pink, Is There a Way Not to Sweat While Sleeping?
Ninian Doff, Why Are You Bleeding Every Morning When We Wake Up?
Dollar Money, Who Is Mark Wahlberg?
Catherine Maskell, Congratulations, When’s It Due?
Crispin Best, What Are the Side Effects of Birth Control?
John Oldham, Where Do You Want to Go Today?
Vaughan Simons, Are You Lookin’ at My Bird?
Josh Kleinberg, What Will We Do Tonight?
DJ Berndt, When Will I Finally Die?
Okay, there’s much good stuff in here. My favorites were Ani Smith, Jimmy Chen, Andrew Borgstrom, Crispin Best, and Josh Kleinberg, but everyone’s favorites will be different in such an eclectic, well-edited collection. Greg Gerke is funny, Ninian Doff is sexy and mysterious, Sam Pink is weird and whimsical, DJ Berndt is absurdly existential, and Chris East is rueful as shit. I am line-broken in the wrong places, but okay otherwise. Thank you for asking.
Scorch Atlas
In Film, Prose, Publicity on September 9, 2009 at 3:22 pmScorch Atlas by Black Butler has been released today from Featherproof Books. Reviews have been justifiably great– I’ve read Blake for awhile now, and know his writing to be consistently powerful, eloquent, innovative, and beautiful. Excerpts I’ve read from Scorch Atlas are no exception; here is one from one of the 14 linked stories in the book (you can read the entire story at DIAGRAM 8.3):
excerpt from The Many Forms of Rain ___ Sent Upon Us in Those Days Before the Last Days
–Static
As if the planet had learned to scratch its back. In massive columns like what we’d seen on TV during our worse storms, stretched check-pattern, warbled spatter. As well, the sound of a billion needles wheedling, tearing their tips against the grain. Sometimes I felt I could hear laugh tracks buried under the floorboards, wedged way deep down in the sod. Somewhere down there was my father. His knuckled rapped against the beams. I began to feel everything inside me at once humming. I felt my organs screech alive: the static replicated in me. When my mouth opened, it came out. The vibration cracked my mirrors. It cracked the foundations of my soft skull. It made me giggle just a bit. I couldn’t keep a hold on as through the windows I saw the wide scrim that for years had nestled me into sleep—the gray/white/black transmission from dead channels, from wavelengths no one had thought to walk.
Plus, a video/audio presentation of another excerpt from the same story:
Hettie and Joice and Daisy
In Drama, Poetry, Surprises on September 8, 2009 at 7:07 pmRebecca Loudon is punching poetry in the gut and not saying sorry over at Radish King, HERE and HERE and HERE. Remember breathing.
Such divisions of promise
In How to, Nutrition, Poetry on September 4, 2009 at 1:33 amAll Particular Wishes
Discussing the weather,
we were careful to be inexact
in the smallest particulars.
Carefully, too, we packed
in newspaper the fragile
mountains I had decided
to take with me– Kawa Karpo,
Cerro Toro, Kailash,
exquisite Fuji, Mount Meru–
Except that’s impossible. We
couldn’t have done that. Mountains
are so big, and there is not enough
newspaper in the world. Really,
what I want to say is, such divisions of
promise are preposterous, you might as
well peel the bark off the trees or
tear the bricks from the house, you will
still be hungry, you will not be full.
Which I know because I know someone who did that once.
by Cami Park
I had another post
In Confessional, History, Opinion on September 3, 2009 at 11:42 amI spent a lot of time on it. It was terrible, so I thought, fuck it.
It’s gone now. This is better.
Counterpoint
In Art, Film, Prose on September 2, 2009 at 9:45 pmcon⋅tra⋅pun⋅tal [kon-truh-puhn-tl] – composed of two or more relatively independent melodies sounded together.
“Jorif offers us a contrapuntal approach to the usual history of slavery and law in early modern America. . . . We are more often engaged in arguments over whether an action is just than over whether an injustice has been done. Jorif’s study. . . . gives us a new handle on this problem by positing, among his observations, that the community that arises out of, or coalesces around, acts of loving forgiveness are just in ways that the law never approaches.” – Prof. Jon-Christian Suggs, review of How Slave Narratives Influenced American Literature by Rolando Leodore Jorif
No violet eyes
In Confessional, Photography, Poetry on September 1, 2009 at 6:08 pm to love life, to love it even
when you have no stomach for it
and everything you’ve held dear
crumbles like burnt paper in your hands,
your throat filled with the silt of it.
When grief sits with you, its tropical heat
thickening the air, heavy as water
more fit for gills than lungs;
when grief weights you like your own flesh
only more of it, an obesity of grief,
you think, How can a body withstand this?
Then you hold life like a face
between your palms, a plain face,
no charming smile, no violet eyes,
and you say, yes, I will take you
I will love you, again.
Did you ever want to make Buddha pears?
In How to, Religion, Sculpture on August 31, 2009 at 11:15 pmA very straightforward blog post of new things to read
In Poetry, Prose, Publicity on August 30, 2009 at 11:59 pmJuked #5 is all up and online and in your business. I haven’t read it yet, but it must be good, featuring fiction from writers like Liz Prato, Craig Snyder, and Marianne Villanueva, poetry from others like James Belflower, Shawn Fawson, and Sarah Blackman, plus an interview of Claudia Smith by Kelly Spitzer.
I have read the new decomP, and especially liked the flash pieces by Ravi Mangla, Michelle Reale, and J. A. Tyler, and the poetry by C. L. Bledsoe and Jen Shalliol.

I tried to blend in with a car today
In Confessional, Music, Science on August 29, 2009 at 9:35 pmWaiting for it to be unlocked. According to Charles Darwin and natural selection, a few tens of thousands of years, and I might have made it. Well, not me, my descendants, maybe, but, anyway.
Girl World
In Film, Poetry, Prose on August 28, 2009 at 7:52 pmI have a thing up at Staccato Fiction. I’m glad they’re back and publishing again.
I did a remix of my past 16 blog post titles, and Crispin Best did, too. He might post his later. Here’s mine:
Girl World
These chalk moon lashes
These dusty pomegranate dead
These giant heart clouds
mammatus
alive
for you
for the other you
good little librarian head
awake
reassured
hiding whatever fainted fragmentary things
in ironic Saturday milk.
Under dusty lashes, the long glance
In Art, Film, Poetry on August 25, 2009 at 7:10 pmI hear the oriole’s always-grieving voice,
And the rich summer’s welcome loss I hear
In the sickle’s serpentine hiss
Cutting the corn’s ear tightly pressed to ear.
And the short skirts of the slim reapers
Fly in the wind like holiday pennants,
The clash of joyful cymbals, and creeping
From under dusty lashes, the long glance.
I don’t expect love’s tender flatteries,
In premonition of some dark event,
But come, come and see this paradise
Where together we were blessed and innocent.
Breaking my heart, shrinking my head
In Art, Confessional, Music on August 24, 2009 at 10:25 pmListening to Miniature Tigers today:
Fainted ironic librarian
In Confessional, Opinion, Poetry on August 23, 2009 at 5:38 amI dreamed I fainted, which woke me up. Now I can’t decide if dreaming you’re fainting is ironic or serendipitous. I’m pretty sure the waking up part is ironic.
I got two books of poetry by Rebecca Loudon in the mail. I won’t review them when I’m finished, because I already know that they are wonderful.
I feel a child should follow and stick with their first instincts. Mine was to become a librarian. I am a frustrated librarian.
Things like other things
In Household, Music, Poetry on August 22, 2009 at 12:46 amThings that are less like hammers.
Things that are like hammers, only softer.
Windows that are less like windows. Dirty.
Mouths that bleed like hammers make, but singing. Things that are
trip out through the eyes like being forgotten is.
I cover you with a pillowcase in the early laundry morning.
Find whatever is hiding
In Art, Photography, Poetry on August 20, 2009 at 2:53 amThe Sky
I like it with nothing. Is it
what I was? What I will be?
I look out there by the hour,
so clear, so sure. I could
smile, or frown—still nothing.
Be my father, be my mother,
great sleep of blue; reach
far within me; open doors,
find whatever is hiding; invite it
for many clear days in the sun.
When I turn away I know
you are there. We won’t forget
each other: every look is a promise.
Others can’t tell what you say
when it’s the blue voice, when
you come to the window and look for me.
Your word arches over
the roof all day. I know it
within my bowed head where
the other sky listens.
You will bring me
everything when the time comes.
Alive, but dead
In Art, Music, Prose on August 19, 2009 at 9:35 pmA few years later, Lisa’s mom took me to where my mom was buried. She’d planted petunias. I could never remember how to get back there after that, but I remember the stone, pressed flat into the earth, read “MOTHER.”
excerpt from Lisa Duncan’s Mom
by Cami Park (me)
originally published in Pindeldyboz
The world is a fragmentary place
In Art, How to, Prose on August 18, 2009 at 8:53 am
Rug
by Kevin White
It all started with an image out of the corner of my eye. There was no corresponding smell. The sounds of someone running. Laughing. crying.
She was Italian through and through.
Move ‘A’ off of the defined space. Move it towards the wall and turn it sideways to fit. Drag ‘B’ off (towards the double door). Leave ‘B’ positioned parallel to the transept shouldar 12e.
All remaining objects, lint, dirt, are to be removed. Begin rolling article 13c. towards the main door. Begin by rolling a tube approx.; 2″ in diameter. Upon finishing the rolling, tie 13c. with 10 guage steel wire at 25″ intervals.
A good Saturday
In Poetry, Prose, T-shirt on August 15, 2009 at 1:15 amOkay, so The Collagist opened today, and it looks great and has great writing (I particularly liked the particular poem Autumn Scene as Lullaby, by Oliver de la Paz), which is all well and good.
But Saturday is Abjective day, and Eric Beeny’s story this week, Milk Like a Melted Ghost, is no exception. To being a story in Abjective on Saturday, I mean. Another one that makes me realize how original combinations of words and sentences and paragraphs can be. An example: Little yellow birds flew out of their shells, she fell to her knees, the birds flying around her head, a locked cage. This image is going to be flying around my head for some time, I think.
Something else, though– Kim Chinquee has 3 stories in The Collagist, one of which very coincidentally has a connection with Eric Beeny’s Abjective story. I won’t say exactly what, because I don’t want to spoil anyone. Hint: it rhymes with “laceless Roman.”
Chalk supply
In Confessional, Fashion, Photography on August 14, 2009 at 2:23 pmI don’t know where this is, who erases it, if it has to be done daily, or if there’s even a blackboard big enough for all of my fears. But I like the existence of it all– the sign, the board, the man in the cowboy hat and skirt and his pink-trimmed bike; the photograph. I am grateful.
Pomegranate
In How to, Music, Poetry on August 12, 2009 at 12:07 amBrandi Wells Review posted a thing of mine, which was nice to do, I think. It’s a cool place, and Brandi would love for people to send her stuff, so maybe people should.
I burned the fuck out of myself today. For those who don’t know, burning the fuck out of yourself is at least a three degree burn. I’m not sure how many degrees burns go up to. It was my finger, so I held on to frozen things until it stopped hurting. It’s better now.
Achy
In Confessional, Poetry, Sex on August 10, 2009 at 12:03 amI am so achy
waiting for the world to come back to me
or for me to come back to the world
No one to tell these stories to
only others’ stories to tell
No way of telling where
or how
these things will always ever end up

excerpt from FOR ORTS
by Ander Monson
I think of sex & of Godzilla with the wake of detritus that trails behind
his fiery gaze—millions of extension cords, telephone line & fiber (think
cereal, think sincere & serial addictions; repeat) optic cable (so hot,
that Godzilla, that I can dial him up, that I can give into
his new sex games, that big-ass monster Yes). I am so tight
I cannot speak. This yes this rash of it this gush. Reply, then rinse.
Repeat. I think of cream & a monster foot set down on it & thus
it is in me. I am this print fossilized in Nivea. I wait to be filled in
with whatever comes next. I hope it looks like love.
Make me new
In Confessional, Nutrition, Poetry on August 9, 2009 at 12:42 amMy heart is an erratic, unbeautiful thing.
No joy
In Art, Confessional, Prose on August 6, 2009 at 12:18 amWhich is more beautiful?
In Art, Music, Poetry on August 5, 2009 at 12:48 amafter life
whatever beautiful factory
trucks forever passing
we stumble into half-attending
–Cami Park (me)
previously published in elimae
I tried to learn the accordion once
In Confessional, Entertaining, Music on August 4, 2009 at 6:19 pmI still love zydeco.
Funny/Scary
In Art, Celebrity, Religion on August 3, 2009 at 12:07 amThere’s something dangerous about what’s funny. Jarring and disconcerting. There is a connection between funny and scary. –Christopher Walken
Things to do on a plinth
In Confessional, List, Nutrition on August 1, 2009 at 12:40 amI would French braid my hair on a plinth.
I would eat a bologna sandwich on a plinth. No, egg salad, because I just remembered,
I’m a vegetarian now.
I would perfect my Humphrey Bogart impression on a plinth.
I would race turtles on a plinth.
I would invent the super-anivated penambulator on a plinth. You will know it when you see it.
I will love the plinth. The plinth will admire my body.
I would lie on my back on a plinth, hands down on the concrete.
Spit marbles into the sky.
Trust someone.
What if a whisk
In Art, Household, Poetry on July 31, 2009 at 12:03 amManic Whisk
Let me out of this drawer–
I don’t belong here in this rabble
of misunderstood gadgets, spatulas,
and sad, hopeful corkscrews.
I am an artist–
Free me, and I will whip
heaping mountains of cream,
beat eggs within a living inch,
create meringues the likes of which
would have driven Van Gogh to burn
his precious Sunflowers. Picasso at
his most cubistic has nothing on me,
my arcs and twirls and brilliant frothing mounds.
This darkness is not worthy of me–
Dali weeps.
Size matters. Yep, yep, yep.
In How to, Prose, Publicity on July 26, 2009 at 9:53 pmRandall Brown, writer, editor, educator, and general connoisseur of all things flash fiction, has founded a new site dedicated to making all tiny (written) things count. There are daily features that include prompts, crafting advice, a weekly guest blogger on flash fiction topics, interviews, and a Sunday micro-fiction feature. An authors page lists writers with links to their blog or website, plus a representative story. Though just getting off the ground, FlashFiction.net is already informative, exciting, and chock full of micro, mini, flashly goodnesses. I suggest you check it.
Heavy is the crown
In Confessional, Household, Universe on July 21, 2009 at 12:06 amA woman’s hair is her crowning glory, my grandmother always said.
She also once told me she felt like she was drowning. We had been washing dishes together in silence, her hands wrist-deep in suds. I placed the plate I’d been drying in the rack and leaned over the sink on tiptoe to look out the window at the star-speckled sky. Searched for the Milky Way, scanned for the moon.
Thank God for Hell
In Music, Philosophy, Religion on July 19, 2009 at 12:12 amIt inspires such great cartoons.
The goddam regrets
In Confessional, Poetry, T-shirt on July 14, 2009 at 4:09 pmThe Title of this Poem Is Really Long. It Is: I Am Often Horrified by the Words that Come Out of My Mouth
I should always wear a t-shirt
that says
Oh,
My God,
I Am So
Sorry
Rumble
In Music, Prose, Publicity on July 13, 2009 at 3:37 pmRumble‘s 5th Anniversary Issue includes 3 microscopic fictions by me, plus more excellent fictions by Michelle Reale, J.A. Tyler, Ryan B. Richey, and Krishan Coupland. It makes me want to pinch its cheeks.
Physics & Meteorology
In Household, Music, Poetry on July 6, 2009 at 5:54 amA Conversation about Momentum
Everything needs dusting but the weather.
It’s impossible to do this with dishes piling up
and while you’re wearing that red shirt.
The curtains are out of line and–
Oh, don’t let me fall asleep!
I mean, what we’ve been through.
And it’s been so long, so long.
I guess what I’m saying is, the
truth doesn’t have to hurt,
but it might as well.
–Cami Park (me)
originally published in Ward 6 Review
Crescent Earth
In History, Music, Universe on July 5, 2009 at 11:25 pmthis post dedicated to Crispin Best, who is interested in and sad about the moon.
Gold star
In Confessional, Entertaining, How to on July 4, 2009 at 5:32 amI slept last night, and made no major mistakes yesterday. So, gold star for me.
Today is the day we celebrate our freedom by making Jello Poke Cake. Below is a recipe, adapted for patriotism.

Patriotic Poke Cake
White cake — that’s it, just a white cake. Any old white cake. Being, a cake that’s white.
Another white cake— see above.
1 large box of Strawberry Jello [tm] — Make sure it’s large.
I large box of blue jello — make sure it’s blue.
4 cups water
Vanilla pudding
Milk
Cool Whip
Make a white cake, according to the directions on the box. Because, I guess, that’s the only way to make a white cake. Then, make another one.
While the cake is still hot, poke holes in it with the handle of a wooden spoon (no other utensil will work for these holes, do NOT fool around!)
Do it again with the other one.
Dissolve Jello in 2 cups boiling water (each), and pour over cake. Leave no part of the cake uncovered. The cake should no longer be white at the end of this procedure.
Pour red jello over one cake, and blue over the other.
Let the cake cool while you make vanilla pudding. Somehow.
There’s probably a box or something, like with the cake.
Maybe you’ll need more pudding. Another box or something.
Okay, here’s the best part– get ready–
COVER THE ENTIRE CAKE WITH PUDDING
COVER THE OTHER ENTIRE CAKE WITH PUDDING
Stack cakes on top of each other.
And the second best part:
COVER IT ALL WITH COOL WHIP.
Et voila.
I got this from Julia Child.
A post
In Confessional on July 3, 2009 at 5:39 amI have nothing compelling to post–
nor even anything especially mundane.
the UPS man today smelled like shampoo.
my car is making a funny noise, and I realize I’m
way behind on changing the oil. I kind of like the sound.
I got my read some words in the mail, and I did. I read every damn
one of them. it was good.
I’m not sure where to go from here.
Paperwork
In Household, List, Prose on July 2, 2009 at 12:06 amDOCUMENTATION
I. Assessment of severity
it’s like you’re an oyster that can’t make pearls
II. Activities of daily living
make bed
scramble eggs
match socks
III. Social functioning
you’re afraid of what might happen when you speak
IV. Episodes of decompensation
no way independent
of
the
quality of stone
Butterless
In Confessional, Opinion, Surprises on June 28, 2009 at 7:55 pmThere is no longer butter inside these boxes:

I find that misleading.
Pocket by Tim Horvath
In Fashion, Philosophy, Prose on June 27, 2009 at 9:37 pmI read this today over at DIAGRAM. I liked it a lot. It’s crazy inventive in so many ways, but mostly I thought, who would think of not making pocket plural? It integrated into the story so well, and the author got so much out of it. In a note about the piece at the very end, Tim Horvath says, “(((()))) If the string theorists are right, the universe teems with hidden dimensions; pockets abound. To make even a single new one, then, is to play at being God,” which is an amazing thing to say, I think.
So, read that, I would suggest.
He was easy to buy for
In Exes, Poetry, T-shirt on June 24, 2009 at 12:39 amHomer
My first boyfriend
wore t-shirts all the time.
He had glasses, and
dimples when he smiled.
He was the first boy
I ever really
loved who
ever really loved
me.
I think he wears ties and stuff now.
Quick Fiction 15
In First Sentences, Opinion, Prose on June 23, 2009 at 11:57 pm
The day Quick Fiction comes in the mail is a good day. I haven’t finished it yet, but this, from Andrew Michael Roberts’ The Inconspicuous Beginning of Our Disappearance, struck me as such an exquisite opening sentence in a microfiction work that I wanted to save it for always, and also share with anyone that happens to wander by here: “This was the year they found owls wound in twine at the bases of burned-out trees and the river’s mouth stuffed with girls who’d kissed its mirror and drowned in their complicated names.” The rest of the sentences are pretty good, too.
Also, Andrea Kneeland’s The Practical Application of Beauty is just exactly that. I caught my breath.
It really is a lion
In List, Poetry, Prose on June 22, 2009 at 8:53 pm
The boat is a pineapple.
Your head is a zipper.
My hands are garbage bags.
The jungle is a ruby.
Your teeth are strawberries.
The water is cotton.
His pajamas are linoleum.
Her feet are my hands.
The air is glass.
People I wish I could be more like
In Confessional, List, Mathematics on June 21, 2009 at 5:05 pmJulia Child
Thomas Jefferson
Socrates
Halle Berry
Albert Camus
American Maid
Mr. T
Hypatia

Tangents too often ambiguous.
Not really*
In Confessional, List, Poetry on June 20, 2009 at 12:03 amThings to Do Before 120
Learn to read palms.
Write a sequel to the Bible.
Make the perfect banana pudding.
Solve for pie. Anything. Solve
anything for pie.
Run Canadians across the border.
See Brooklyn Heights.
Have sex for money just once when
I’m not broke.
Get a good night’s sleep.
–Cami Park (me)
*I have already been to Brooklyn Heights
Your favorite toy
In Exes, Hobby, How to on June 19, 2009 at 12:23 pmTo play with a yo-yo, slip the top loop of the string over your middle finger, and throw it down. Once it travels to the bottom of the string and returns to your hand, grab it and throw it down again. This can go on forever. There are many games to play, including sleep. Sleep can go for years, even, until the string is jerked again.

List of words
In Hobby, List, Prose on June 19, 2009 at 8:58 amI’m compiling of a list of words that I’ve discovered in my journeys around and abouts the internet. Every once in awhile one will catch my eye as I’m googling an image or downloading porn, and I’ve become intrigued by them in spite of myself. As you can see, I don’t have that many, so if anyone else happens to have a random word lying around they’d like to donate to my collection, feel free– I’ll happily add it, with credit.
FEATHERED
ENCYCLOPEDIA
POLKA
SEVICHE
CRABGRASS
BILLIARDS
VAULT

Dangerous Fruit Stores
In Drama, History, Nutrition on June 18, 2009 at 12:27 am“It is possible to look at evil so steadily that other evils, almost equally menacing, are unnoticed. Evidently in a desire to curb the saloon and the poolroom the growing evil of gambling and other demoralizing features of fruit stores has been overlooked.”

It’s about time someone spoke up about this in 1904.
Hardest interview question ever
In Music, Prose, Publicity on June 17, 2009 at 5:46 amYet Claudia Smith answers it beautifully, in this interview I came across in Thunk.
Evolution of Jellyfish
In Confessional, History, Poetry on June 16, 2009 at 8:45 pm
Once we got the hang of it, we
breathed circles around each other.
Skipped foreheads off
rocks, chewed
embers.
Jellyfish,
left to their own
devices, developed spines, got
religion, eschewed
risk
made Gods of sticks.
–Cami Park (me)
originally published in tinfoildresses
Form is never more than an extension of breakfast.
In Beverage, Nutrition, Poetry on June 14, 2009 at 6:00 pm–Bill Knott, from his great blog post all about form and stuff, which concludes with this excellent poem which I just had to post on my own blog.
Late Rising
Terrible
is the soft sound of a hardboiled egg
cracking on a zinc counter
and terrible is that sound
when it moves in the memory
of a man who is hungry
Terrible also is the head of a man
the head of a man hungry
when he looks at six o’clock in the morning
in a smart shop window and sees
a head the color of dust
But it is not his head he sees
in the window of ‘Chez Potin’
he doesn’t give a damn
for the head of a man
he doesn’t think at all
he dreams
imagining another head
calf’s-head for instance
with vinegar sauce
head of anything edible
and slowly he moves his jaws
slowly slowly
grinds his teeth for the world
stands him on his head
without giving him any comeback
so he counts on his fingers one two three
one two three
that makes three days he has been empty
and it’s stupid to go on saying It can’t
go on It can’t go on because
it does
Three days
three nights
without eating
and behind those windows
paté de fois gras wine preserves
dead fish protected by their boxes
boxes in turn protected by windows
these in turn watched by the police
police protected in turn by fear
How many guards for six sardines . . .
Then he comes to the lunch counter
coffee-with-cream buttered toast
and he begins to flounder
and in the middle of his head
blizzard of words
muddle of words
sardines fed
hardboiled eggs coffee-with-cream
coffee black rum food
coffee-with-cream
coffee-with-cream
coffee crime black blood
A respectable man in his own neighborhood
had his throat cut in broad daylight
the dastardly assassin stole from him
two bits that is to say
exactly the price of a black coffee
two slices of buttered toast
and a nickel left to tip the waiter
Terrible
is the soft sound of a hardboiled egg
cracking on a zinc counter
and terrible is that sound when it moves
in the memory
of a man who is hungry.
–Jacques Prévert
trans. by Selden Rodman
Hey, Darby Larson reviewed me a long time ago–
In Prose, Publicity, Surprises on June 13, 2009 at 10:39 pmin Kelly Spitzer’s excellent blog. I just noticed. He talks about my story On Mondays, Francesca Takes the Stairs published in Smokelong Quarterly XVI. Anyway, I like Darby Larson, so it was nice to come across this.
Post-Civil War Re-enactment
In History, Poetry, T-shirt on June 8, 2009 at 10:45 pmMine
Don’t wear that t-shirt. It’s
mine. Wear this
one– it belonged to the
great-grandnephew of
Abraham Lincoln, who died
helping slaves escape to freedom
long after the Civil War
was over. He just didn’t know.
Here. It doesn’t mean anything.
Hat to Bed
In Confessional, Exes, Film on June 8, 2009 at 5:00 pmI had an ex who liked to wear an old wool cap to bed. He said he it kept him warm at night. He was also sensitive about his thinning hair, and I wonder if he secretly had some superstition about wool hats and the prevention of premature baldness. Anyway, I wouldn’t let him wear the hat to bed– I said I felt weird lying next to R.P. McMurphy. Now I wonder if I was petty, or shallow. Or both. I can’t decide.
Frosting is Better for You than High Fructose Corn Syrup
In Beverage, Opinion on June 8, 2009 at 4:19 pmDiet tip: Mountain Dew Throwback tastes just like cake.






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